Category Archives: Hang In There

Finding Peace Through Radical Acceptance

We are living in a world where no one is immortal. We are all going to die one day — that’s the reality.

But when it comes to our loved ones, I often feel like the time we have with them is never enough. That’s how it feels for me whenever I lose someone I love.

My Papa was sick with diabetes for years before he died. He passed away suddenly from a heart attack on July 7th, 2021. I still remember the shock when it happened, because just three hours before he passed, he called me to complain about the AC in his room being broken and asked me to find a technician to fix it. I was often his go-to person whenever he needed something.

After Papa died, I struggled deeply — it was so unexpected. But there was one thing that gave me some solace: knowing he wasn’t in pain anymore. For years, he had to endure daily insulin shots, strict diets, endless doctor visits — which was especially hard for him because he loved good food. In those last months, he really suffered, and I hold on to the comfort that he is finally free from that pain.

What helped me through those first months of grief was the support of close friends, journaling, and constantly reminding myself: Papa isn’t suffering anymore.

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My Encounter With Postpartum Depression

“I can’t do this! Someone else would be a better mother for him. He deserves a better mom, not someone like me. I know nothing about being a mom. I don’t know how to do this! He deserves someone better, and that’s not me.”

I remember that afternoon vividly. I was sitting on the couch in my psychiatrist’s office, sobbing uncontrollably. Through tears, I confessed that I wanted to give up my baby for adoption because I truly believed someone else could be a better mom to Aidan. Day after day, my thoughts spiraled, telling me I wasn’t good enough for him. He deserved a “real mom”—someone who could love and care for him properly.

Dr. C listened to me empathetically, as she always did. It was only my third appointment with her after being referred by my GP and midwife. They had grown increasingly concerned about my condition following Aidan’s birth.

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Merry Christmas 🎄🎁 🌟 everyone

Yes I know .. I’m one day late 😑.. it’s the ADHD 😑…

It has been an interesting Christmas 🎄 this year for me. There’s a lot of difficult emotions 😣 that I experienced, and there were times when I was totally overwhelmed 😔.

But no matter how hard and/or confusing things are… I do believe one thing: God is good 😌.

Wishing you all a peaceful Christmas 🎄 ❤️ 🤗

— 🌻 Sophie ❤️

Pic credit: meanwhile in Canada 🍁

Sophie’s Story

How I Got Sick

Things have been difficult for me since 2010 when I lost my grandma, the woman who raised me. My condition worsened when another grievous event happened in early 2013. I spiraled into a deep depression and became suicidal by 2014. The mental pain was unbearable; I was in anguish.

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Here’s to the Crazy Ones

Think Different

“Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”

by Rob Siltanen

I do believe in this.

🌻 Sophie